There were many parts of it that I was too young to comprehend, and I was lucky enough to be saved by a family that was willing to adopt my brother and me.
[ it wasn't easy to lose her mother. it is never easy for her to experience any type of loss, but... ]
It's because I experienced that... that I want so much to be able to help others.
[she says, tilting her head.] People could see that and decide they wanted nothing to do with others. Nobody saved them, so they wouldn't save anybody.
I think it speaks to the kind of person you are. [...] And you do help. S'always comforting to talk with you.
I want to choose kindness every time I can. [ it's not always possible, but it's her preference. ] People may be weak, and they may be too weak to help others, but they are still people I want to give courage to.
Thank you, Karlach. I enjoy every time I talk with you, too.
[ it's hard for robin not to like anyone who cares as openly as karlach does. ]
[ revenge is something that robin does not understand, but she can see and feel the pain karlach has. it is an injustice. it is unfair, and it pains robin that karlach has to suffer so.
once the memory is done, robin's hand hovers over her heart. she knew something was different, but she didn't know it was stolen like that. ]
Karlach... Have you.... Is there.... [ there are so many questions she could ask, but they all feel wrong. ] That you are the way you are even after such a betrayal speaks to your strength.
[ because she has all the reason to remain as bitter and as angry as she is in that memory. ]
[ robin's eyes widen, as dread fills her. she didn't expect that soon. it takes much of willpower to keep her expression from crumpling. ]
It may be being here suspends you from what endangers you. I do not want to say being here... is any kind of boon, but perhaps there is a way from others outside your world that can help you.
[ she doesn't know if this is false hope. she doesn't want it to be false hope, but other worlds provide more possibilities. ]
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she's going to say something, but she gets distracted by this immediately, and then:]
... Oh. [a little breathless, a little sad.] Oh, Robin, I'm sorry.
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It's all right. It has been long past, and I hold my mother's wishes with me.
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And you were so little, to see the world get fucked like that.
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[ it wasn't easy to lose her mother. it is never easy for her to experience any type of loss, but... ]
It's because I experienced that... that I want so much to be able to help others.
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[she says, tilting her head.] People could see that and decide they wanted nothing to do with others. Nobody saved them, so they wouldn't save anybody.
I think it speaks to the kind of person you are. [...] And you do help. S'always comforting to talk with you.
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I want to choose kindness every time I can. [ it's not always possible, but it's her preference. ] People may be weak, and they may be too weak to help others, but they are still people I want to give courage to.
Thank you, Karlach. I enjoy every time I talk with you, too.
[ it's hard for robin not to like anyone who cares as openly as karlach does. ]
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[she wants to be someone people enjoy talking to - someone who people can rely on.
the memory void seems to agree - after all, she's only got so much time left. might as well make the most of it, right?]
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once the memory is done, robin's hand hovers over her heart. she knew something was different, but she didn't know it was stolen like that. ]
Karlach... Have you.... Is there.... [ there are so many questions she could ask, but they all feel wrong. ] That you are the way you are even after such a betrayal speaks to your strength.
[ because she has all the reason to remain as bitter and as angry as she is in that memory. ]
Your heart... Is there no way to fix it still?
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[she says, after a moment, dragging in a breath.]
And... no. It's too hot, can't exist on this plane. The only way is going back to the Hells, but I won't be doing that. I'd rather die.
So I figured I'll just take advantage of what I got.
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[...]
Dammon gave me a couple weeks. It's... been a couple weeks.
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It may be being here suspends you from what endangers you. I do not want to say being here... is any kind of boon, but perhaps there is a way from others outside your world that can help you.
[ she doesn't know if this is false hope. she doesn't want it to be false hope, but other worlds provide more possibilities. ]
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Might be. I'm not sure what's stopping it. [a sigh.] I've had a couple people offer, but that means I've got to make it to the end of this.
And I'm not even sure we'll be able to do that.
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There has been more death than expected. [ and she was expecting it. ] Even so, I still think we have a chance.
All nightmares are meant to be woken from.