Or maybe I had a moment where I thought I could do better and I'm learning I can't.
[ He's not really sure where that is, given the everything happening, but maybe there was a brief period between Prehevil and right now where he felt more like a person again. Not anymore! Really just turbo depression, save me. ]
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... If you didn't feel, it wouldn't affect you as it does.
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I think I felt more devastated when the dog died. There's something wrong with that.
[ A month of this just wears you down, objectively if she had been the first to die he would have felt more but. ]
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[ there is something wrong with that. she agrees. ]
I am tired, too, but if we become too used to it... that makes it worse.
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[ He laughs hollowly, a short and dull noise. ]
Don't let me stand in the way of your grieving...
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[ her voice is soft. she isn't here to argue anything. she only wants to say. ]
You are doing worse.
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Or maybe I had a moment where I thought I could do better and I'm learning I can't.
[ He's not really sure where that is, given the everything happening, but maybe there was a brief period between Prehevil and right now where he felt more like a person again. Not anymore! Really just turbo depression, save me. ]
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she closes her eyes for a brief moment because she doesn't want to offer anything that sounds false to her ears. the loss has been so intense. ]
I think a moment can change anyone for the better or the worse.
[ it has been a lot of moments for the worse, she's aware. ]
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Sure. You're not wrong. We're all just moments in the end.
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Sorry, I just don't really have anything else to say.
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but it's all in bracket text because what is she but a PERFORMER WHO'S NOT QUITE A CLOWN. when will you give us clown chart again
she shakes her head. ]
I didn't come here to make anything happen. I came here to be here.
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...
Thanks.
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see you next week (tomorrow) ]