[ No he's turbo-depressing it's alarming. Can you believe I actually took him from a generous reading of his backstory and it's like this. ]
...My father-in-law's wounds were self-inflicted. Sacrificed, yes, but he... I don't know.
[ His thoughts are a mire, every time he tries to think about this. It feels like he's digging himself into a hole the longer he stops to think about it, and yet he can't just move on. ]
[ I WANTED HIM... TO BE SLIGHTLY HAPPIER... MAKES A FIST...
The idea of it makes him ill. He wants to know, but would he be happier knowing? Those cold eyes, devoid of life, only cruel humour when he saw them last. His head swims a little bit. ]
[ it's an honest answer. she can't predict the future in any way, and she's been away from penacony for so long that she had to take time to reacclimate and run around talking to people. ]
But if it's inevitable, I may as well try to do what I can about it. It may not be much, but something small can grow into something larger.
[ being related or adopted by the people who were once in charge doesn't hurt either. ]
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...My father-in-law's wounds were self-inflicted. Sacrificed, yes, but he... I don't know.
[ His thoughts are a mire, every time he tries to think about this. It feels like he's digging himself into a hole the longer he stops to think about it, and yet he can't just move on. ]
I'll never get to know.
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she closes her eyes. that is heavy. it must weigh terribly and hurt more. when wounds are self-inflicted, it makes you wonder all that much more. ]
If that cult still exists... it's not an impossibility, but... you're right. I don't know if it'd give you all the answers you're seeking.
[ only some of them. ]
You'd have to summon his ghost or see into his memory.
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The idea of it makes him ill. He wants to know, but would he be happier knowing? Those cold eyes, devoid of life, only cruel humour when he saw them last. His head swims a little bit. ]
Probably.
Back to your world tours with you, I presume?
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she is concerned, but she will let him change the subject. ]
Not exactly. Penacony is... about to face some changes, and I want them to go in a new direction than they have before. It's what the planet needs.
[ it's what Harmony needs. ]
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Change. That's usually rough for even one person, let alone an entire planet-ful's worth of people.
Think it'll go well?
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[ it's an honest answer. she can't predict the future in any way, and she's been away from penacony for so long that she had to take time to reacclimate and run around talking to people. ]
But if it's inevitable, I may as well try to do what I can about it. It may not be much, but something small can grow into something larger.
[ being related or adopted by the people who were once in charge doesn't hurt either. ]
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The will to keep trying is at least half of it, you know.
I wish you the best at it. I think you can.