laudna catchall

[sonorant]

i love her already

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[sonorant]

[ i guess you could cuck me. you really could do that. i would believe that.

her emotions are very violent. they're all kinds of violent. ]

Yes?

[undread]

Ah.

[there's a bit of sadness, that it's not the same robin she's grown to be quite fond of. but there's also some interest, recognizing this person who was beneath the surface.]

Hello, dear. It's nice to meet you, after all this time.

[sonorant]

[ there's a sliver of amusement before it goes back to being more dark and awful. ]

After all this time? Don't call me dear.

[undread]

[she brightens at that.]

Oh! Well, I'll call you whatever I like, really. But I do think it's nice to see you be a little angry.

[sonorant]

[ that manages to get her angrier somehow. she comes up against to the barrier and her hand lashes out to strike it, once. ]

You don't know half of what you're talking about.

[undread]

[wowee. what a woman.]

Will you tell me, then? I'd love to hear.

[sonorant]

Why would you say after all this time? Still? Now?

[undread]

Does that offend you? Do you feel you have always expressed your truest innermost feelings?

[she's still smiling, but she's uncertain.]

[sonorant]

I don't think it matters at this point, does it?

[ all she feels is anger and resentment right now. ]

Whatever my feelings may be. Whatever I express.

[undread]

If it didn't matter, you wouldn't be so angry to be misunderstood.

[sonorant]

[ there is a crack in her anger, the violence, the bloodthirst. it recedes and ebbs for a great sadness and tiredness to come in. ]

I have lived too long with assumptions made about me.

[undread]

Now that I do understand.

[she's still smiling, though. unsettling as it is. her feelings don't match the expression; she is interested, but there's nothing gleeful in this.]

Do you resent me for assuming you weren't angry all along? Because I didn't.

[sonorant]

[ the smiling is a little unsettling, but she's come to understand that's part of how laudna is. she doesn't think it's uncaring. ]

No. I'm not. I wasn't angry, then. I just didn't have the heart to say the things I should have to you when you asked.

[undread]

Do you have the heart to say them now?

[sonorant]

[ the honest answer is no, but she'll say it anyway because she feels like she should say it plainly to laudna. ]

I didn't kill Eric Tomizawa.

[undread]

...Ah. [i see.] Then what was all of that about?

[sonorant]

[...]

I'm sorry.

... I didn't want to admit how much I was hurting, and ended up causing more instead.

[undread]

Yes... It really is quite extremely bad that there's another monster running about and we know nothing about them!

[smiling awkwardly! she's not angry though, just. what the hell.]

You were just unhappy, so not answering questions very directly, or...?

[sonorant]

[ all she feels is tired. ]

I didn't say any falsehoods. I was raised a certain way, trained to speak another way. My family is made of politicians.

I don't mind if you think that's a poor excuse.

[undread]

I know you didn't say falsehoods. You never claimed to be, and I suppose I simply felt you would be more forceful in your denials if it weren't true.

[but that's not robin's fault, necessarily. it's just. exhausting to think about.]

You don't happen to have any idea who did kill him, do you?

[sonorant]

I realize not insisting more caused more trouble. There are some battles I've long stopped fighting.

[ sometimes, you get accused of so many things as a galactic idol that you shut down a little. ]

I told them I would let it be their secret to share, but they were someone who got angry at me.

[ that's as much of a hint she'll give. ]

[undread]

I see. I imagine so - they were never found.

[sonorant]

[ it looks as if she's about to say something but decides against it. ]

I will take whatever blame.