sonorant | daan catchall

...Dead.

In a... ritual circle, with that symbol...

[ it's what she thought, and she hates it. ]

I'm so sorry. It must be why you're seeking out this cult.

[ or at least part of the reason why. ]

I hope you can find your answers soon, once we're out of all this.

[ He doesn't have much of an answer to that, just fishing out a cigarette and lighting it. Sorry for smoking in front of delicate young ladies. ]

We'll see what happens.

[ can you imagine there's no smoke in space las vegas? it's fine ]

... Are you losing hope?

Losing? No, I'd say I'd lost that kind of thing a good while ago now.

Not that I'm trying to garner sympathy or pity with my nihilistic ideas...

But to be totally honest, that quest for answers is probably the only thing that got me out of that basement to begin with at all.

Just trucking along, seeing where I end up, I suppose. I don't have any intention to just fall over and die, at any rate.

[ it does hurt to hear people say things like, to see their suffering, as quiet as it is. robin does so much to try to fend off and defy nihility as best as she can. she can't and doesn't want to force hope onto anyone. it's part of her struggle. ]

More than sympathy or pity, I want to try to give and have understanding. To find death in your home like that... I would lose hope, too, but you do have resilience. You may be enduring, but... I do appreciate that you are still going. I do appreciate that you have no wish to die.

... Thanks.

Just moving along and all. You don't need to understand it, really.

Tragedy, peculiar thing. If you can afford to live your life in light then I don't see why you shouldn't.

[ her lips curve in the barest of smiles. ]

If I don't understand, could I even profess to be helping? Everyone should have a little light in their life.

Whether you want it to reach you.... or whether you think it should... I understand that is a different issue.

Some things are... beyond helping.

[ He doesn't mean to be a nihilist but it's more... objectively, what can she do for him? Nothing she can do will give him the answers he's looking for. He's very tired. ]

[ he doesn't mean to be.... but it sounds it. boy, does it sound it. they are all powerless here, though. ]

I know there is not much I can do here, but... I do not know how not to try.

It's sweet of you, Robin.

As usual -- befits you and your personality.

Not even a bullet can stop you...

But I do think I'll have to advise against this one.

[ ... ]

Are you adamant in staying like this?

Adamant? No.

But I'll have to refuse involving any others into my affairs. Nothing good has ever come out of it...

[ sir that's a little adamant ]

That's a lonely existence, isn't it?

[ It would only be adamant if he insisted with no grounds to stand on but he definitely has grounds to stand on. ]

...

[ Anyway sorry he doesn't have a response to that. ]

[ ok what about stubborn

that's fine. she doesn't need one. she smiles a little, not without some sadness. ]

I won't insist on anything, but I am thinking of you, Daan.

[ Still no because nobody has actually outright offered in a way that makes sense. ]

...Told you, I wasn't trying to fish for sympathy...

[ It's not said in a dismissive way though. Just like. Well feelsbad that the mood is down again. ]

[ robin offers to summon dominicus for daan and take over the train for him ]

I told you... it is not sympathy for me either.

[ she can deal with a bad mood. it's fine. that's her all the time. ]

[ Help not like this. Daan's life is a prime example of why he thinks a birdcage is necessary. ]

Then what would you call it? It's hard to consider anything else.

[ Other than pity, maybe, but he isn't so petty as to suggest that. ]

[ oh, he's a sunday. this is why your character type is a circle. ]

Caring. But if you view it as something else, I suppose the fault lies with me.

[ NO I MEAN WHY SUNDAY THINKS A BIRDCAGE IS NECESSARY. Daan doesn't have the capacity to start trying to wrangle other people unrelated to him, although it would be nice if his suffering at least had meaning. Haunted af by an ancient god though, yes. ]

Caring and sympathy are similar enough threads in the same fabric, I would think. Not sure how you could be caring without being sympathetic, or vice versa.

[ HE DOESN'T HAVE TO DO WHAT SUNDAY DOES TO BE A SUNDAY. HE JUST HAS TO THINK SIMILARLY. SEE, THIS IS WHY SHE WANTS TO TRY WITH HIM. BECAUSE HE'S A SUNDAY.

anyway. ]

This may be getting the weeds a little. They are connected, but when people speak of sympathy in this context, it is often to make it more shallow. That may not be your intention, but I do want to seem superficial.

[ Fascinated by this dissection because I do not agree, ready to read your dissertation later. ]

...

Is it? I suppose I've never been in the business of verbiage and semantics... I'm not a writer or journalist after all. Being a public figure, I'll just take your word for it.

[ i don't think he's exactly like sunday. to be clear. he just has one aspect similar that you pointed out yourself. that's enough. ]

Thank you. [ ... ] As I said, I won't insist on anything, but know I do care. That's all.

[ Yeah I know and even by that metric I'm like you've got me curious. ]

Thanks.

...

But only if you take care first.

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