[ he drops it and snuffs it out underfoot anyway. Insert something about being nice to pretty women anyway but he doesn't want it to be taken the wrong way or something. He sighs a little. ]
[ He drinks the respect women juice. So much so that all his cyoa cr keeps being women and then he fails them. So much progressiveness that it accidentally almost warps around back to misogyny . . . ]
...Just about everything in my life's been dictated by gods. Sylvian, Vitruvia... whoever's symbol I saw on that ritual circle. Rher, by virtue of His servant...
It'd be nice to get away from it all, but even if I really did give up on this quest for answers... he's not going to stop following me, I think.
[ yo... don't let it accidentally loop back around. drink a little less.
she's thoughtful because she doesn't know how far an Aeon's gaze goes outside of her cosmos. it's not something she's really had to think about before. ]
Do you want to give up on your gods? Would you sever your connections with them, given the chance?
[ All these women, and then a dog, that kept getting harmed by virtue of being close cr. I'm losing it. ]
It's a bit hard to imagine it at this point in my life, but yeah.
It's not like I'd called on them for a while outside of strenuous circumstances... I learned how to heal with traditional medicine. If the rest of the world can live on it, so can I.
[ ...Then again, would it mean he'd never get those answers he was looking for? But chances weren't looking too good anyway... well... ]
[ she's spent so long looking to xipe she wouldn't know how not to, but even with whatever dissatisfactions she may have, it's not like her life is haunted by misfortunate after misfortune because of gods. ]
You could experience a different kind of freedom that way. I don't know how to remove blessings, but...
You are still looking for answers, aren't you? You want to find out what happened.
[ He looks so tired. Generally he doesn't, but thinking about this, his personal goals, always manages to bring that back out of him. ]
...I do. I've... accepted Elise's death, but I just want some kind of answer for why, you know...? Whether the thing I saw in that city really was her, and my father-in-law, or if I've just gone insane. Why he killed her and himself.
[ this man is so depressing. those are mostly my thoughts, not robin's. she does think he has so much depression, though. his nihilism. ]
Could they not have been sacrificed, outside of their own choice?
[ you know. like they were about to be here. ]
I thinks it's fine for you to want to know why, to continue to search for it, but from how I've heard you talk about Elise, it doesn't sound like something she'd want for you.
[ to be taken like her, to be turned into whatever daan thought was her. ]
[ No he's turbo-depressing it's alarming. Can you believe I actually took him from a generous reading of his backstory and it's like this. ]
...My father-in-law's wounds were self-inflicted. Sacrificed, yes, but he... I don't know.
[ His thoughts are a mire, every time he tries to think about this. It feels like he's digging himself into a hole the longer he stops to think about it, and yet he can't just move on. ]
[ I WANTED HIM... TO BE SLIGHTLY HAPPIER... MAKES A FIST...
The idea of it makes him ill. He wants to know, but would he be happier knowing? Those cold eyes, devoid of life, only cruel humour when he saw them last. His head swims a little bit. ]
[ it's an honest answer. she can't predict the future in any way, and she's been away from penacony for so long that she had to take time to reacclimate and run around talking to people. ]
But if it's inevitable, I may as well try to do what I can about it. It may not be much, but something small can grow into something larger.
[ being related or adopted by the people who were once in charge doesn't hurt either. ]
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smoking restores mind? IT'S BAD FOR YOU. imagine robin can't deal with it despite being space las vegas. ]
I thought... even with however they interfered with the ritual, the god could have turned out differently.
[ even without the mods giving us that chart, robin would have thought about this because of what sunday did. ]
Are you all right, Daan?
[ he does look out of it, and she doesn't know that's what happens when he heals. ]
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Fine... nothing a smoke and a bit of getting away from everything can't solve.
[ He'd know from experience. He just hasn't used it so often in such a short amount of time in a while. He tilts his head minutely in her direction. ]
Don't want god talk again anytime soon... no... could use a break... a long one.
You?
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I understand getting away from everything, but smoking...
[ does the surgeon general's warning exist in penacony? anyway, science is advanced enough to know. ]
I could leave behind the birth of a new god for a long time as well. [ how many times does she have to be reminded of sunday in this specific way? ]
Will you let yourself have a chance to have that break?
[ he turned down so many people in the rock meeting. ]
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What, do you not like it? I can put it out if you feel like chatting.
[ Even if his brain is slightly soup. ]
That's not really a choice I get to make...
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[ her singer lungs will deal. ]
Is it not?
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[ he drops it and snuffs it out underfoot anyway. Insert something about being nice to pretty women anyway but he doesn't want it to be taken the wrong way or something. He sighs a little. ]
Never really has been.
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but daan, if smoking actually helps your mental health an iota.... please.... ]
How so?
[ she wants to hear more of his perspective. ]
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...Just about everything in my life's been dictated by gods. Sylvian, Vitruvia... whoever's symbol I saw on that ritual circle. Rher, by virtue of His servant...
It'd be nice to get away from it all, but even if I really did give up on this quest for answers... he's not going to stop following me, I think.
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she's thoughtful because she doesn't know how far an Aeon's gaze goes outside of her cosmos. it's not something she's really had to think about before. ]
Do you want to give up on your gods? Would you sever your connections with them, given the chance?
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It's a bit hard to imagine it at this point in my life, but yeah.
It's not like I'd called on them for a while outside of strenuous circumstances... I learned how to heal with traditional medicine. If the rest of the world can live on it, so can I.
[ ...Then again, would it mean he'd never get those answers he was looking for? But chances weren't looking too good anyway... well... ]
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[ she's spent so long looking to xipe she wouldn't know how not to, but even with whatever dissatisfactions she may have, it's not like her life is haunted by misfortunate after misfortune because of gods. ]
You could experience a different kind of freedom that way. I don't know how to remove blessings, but...
You are still looking for answers, aren't you? You want to find out what happened.
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...I do. I've... accepted Elise's death, but I just want some kind of answer for why, you know...? Whether the thing I saw in that city really was her, and my father-in-law, or if I've just gone insane. Why he killed her and himself.
[ Why they didn't take me with them. ]
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Could they not have been sacrificed, outside of their own choice?
[ you know. like they were about to be here. ]
I thinks it's fine for you to want to know why, to continue to search for it, but from how I've heard you talk about Elise, it doesn't sound like something she'd want for you.
[ to be taken like her, to be turned into whatever daan thought was her. ]
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...My father-in-law's wounds were self-inflicted. Sacrificed, yes, but he... I don't know.
[ His thoughts are a mire, every time he tries to think about this. It feels like he's digging himself into a hole the longer he stops to think about it, and yet he can't just move on. ]
I'll never get to know.
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she closes her eyes. that is heavy. it must weigh terribly and hurt more. when wounds are self-inflicted, it makes you wonder all that much more. ]
If that cult still exists... it's not an impossibility, but... you're right. I don't know if it'd give you all the answers you're seeking.
[ only some of them. ]
You'd have to summon his ghost or see into his memory.
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The idea of it makes him ill. He wants to know, but would he be happier knowing? Those cold eyes, devoid of life, only cruel humour when he saw them last. His head swims a little bit. ]
Probably.
Back to your world tours with you, I presume?
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she is concerned, but she will let him change the subject. ]
Not exactly. Penacony is... about to face some changes, and I want them to go in a new direction than they have before. It's what the planet needs.
[ it's what Harmony needs. ]
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Change. That's usually rough for even one person, let alone an entire planet-ful's worth of people.
Think it'll go well?
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[ it's an honest answer. she can't predict the future in any way, and she's been away from penacony for so long that she had to take time to reacclimate and run around talking to people. ]
But if it's inevitable, I may as well try to do what I can about it. It may not be much, but something small can grow into something larger.
[ being related or adopted by the people who were once in charge doesn't hurt either. ]
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The will to keep trying is at least half of it, you know.
I wish you the best at it. I think you can.