Is it so wrong for you to live? I don't know what it means to be a Bookman, but even someone who records has to experience to know what they're recording.
It is. Is that what being a Bookman is for you? It's you? Being someone who observes is you?
[ she understands duty. she understands something shitty being important to you. fame is not what she wants, but it helps her help others, and she does not like the shitty parts of fame, but she acknowledges them for what they are. ]
...Well, it's lonely, but I get to meet a lot of people. And meeting them makes me happy. Even if I don't see them again... Just knowing they're out there is enough.
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I'm supposed to be. Just not doing it well.
[he flashes her a smile, light]
Are you worried about me?
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[ it's obvious she's worried. ]
Is it so wrong for you to live? I don't know what it means to be a Bookman, but even someone who records has to experience to know what they're recording.
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...at that, his light smile falters, and he looks away.]
...Being a Bookman's kind of shitty. [woah, honesty!] But it's important to me too.
When you talked about wanting to take care and protect others... It's something that's a part of you, right? It's not only a duty -- but it's... you.
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[ she understands duty. she understands something shitty being important to you. fame is not what she wants, but it helps her help others, and she does not like the shitty parts of fame, but she acknowledges them for what they are. ]
That sounds so lonely.
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It's not so bad.
...Well, it's lonely, but I get to meet a lot of people. And meeting them makes me happy. Even if I don't see them again... Just knowing they're out there is enough.
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after a moment, she asks: ]
Is there no one you want to stay with?