It's all right. I appreciate your honestly. [ she does like when the real lavi, when bookman jr peeks out. ] Please protect Mr. Kanda in the way you think is best.
[...her answer makes him feel guilty, because it's what Robin would do -- in the end. she'd hear him out and understand, even if she didn't agree. and she's one of the few who's seen that memory -- to understand the struggle of attachment that Lavi puts all on himself,]
I don't want it to be either of you.
[does that mean he wants it to be someone else in the group? he doesn't know. he's tired, and he doesn't want to be fair about it]
[ she knows, and that's why she wants to push him towards his attachments and tell him it's okay. it's fine to be attached. it hurts to be attached, but that doesn't mean it's not worth it. ]
You're allowed to want that. You're allowed to think it. You don't have to fight that tonight.
It can be another record, or it doesn't have to be part of the record at all.
[ a secret between them two, if it makes him feel a little better about all this. ]
[...the words strike a chord -- precisely because he's never heard them from anyone before, not in all his records or sixteen years of living. because no one's ever known, and the one person who did would tell him to fight it.
he closes his eye, blocking the view of the stars and the world and Robin who he is supposed to observe to the end, no matter what her ending is -- and briefly imagines a better one for her.]
I think I wouldn't mind, if it was yours.
[instead of his record or his memories where this version of Lavi shouldn't even exist -- maybe he can exist in Robin's, if only for a little while.]
[he could keep going in circles about the who and what and whys of the trial, but instead he feels content to just stand here and look up at the sky with her]
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[ she offers him a small smile. ]
It's all right. I appreciate your honestly. [ she does like when the real lavi, when bookman jr peeks out. ] Please protect Mr. Kanda in the way you think is best.
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I don't want it to be either of you.
[does that mean he wants it to be someone else in the group? he doesn't know. he's tired, and he doesn't want to be fair about it]
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You're allowed to want that. You're allowed to think it. You don't have to fight that tonight.
It can be another record, or it doesn't have to be part of the record at all.
[ a secret between them two, if it makes him feel a little better about all this. ]
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he closes his eye, blocking the view of the stars and the world and Robin who he is supposed to observe to the end, no matter what her ending is -- and briefly imagines a better one for her.]
I think I wouldn't mind, if it was yours.
[instead of his record or his memories where this version of Lavi shouldn't even exist -- maybe he can exist in Robin's, if only for a little while.]
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[ because he's here and he's showing her a more honest side. that's all he has to do, as far as she's concerned. ]
You can forget about what you must do, at least for this little while. I'll write it for my record instead.
[ she has her own. his records may be written for history, but hers are written for song. ]
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Thanks, Ro.
[he could keep going in circles about the who and what and whys of the trial, but instead he feels content to just stand here and look up at the sky with her]
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[ they can just do that and nothing more. like right now. even if the stars in this sky aren't real. ]