daan catchall

[sonorant]

i know nothing about f&h

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w2, monday

[sonorant]

[ I WANT A MEMORY IN RETURN. I'M STATING THAT FIRST, but i'm still writing my memories up. you'll get it in the next tag.

robin is going to flag daan down with a raised hand. ]

Good day, Mr. Daan. [ is it? ] You don't have to answer this question if you don't wish to, but after last week, I wanted to see how people felt about the monster affinity partnership. Have you found your partner, and if you haven't, do you want to?

[recession]

Good day. Either you also call me just Daan, or we can mutually agree on honourifics, Ms. Robin.

My stance still remains the same. I'm not inclined towards this deal when the potential losses definitely seem to outweigh the favours.

[sonorant]

If you would like to become more friendly, we may drop the honorifics.

[ she doesn't actually like things that formal, but she's been raised to be this way. ]

That's understandable. I don't think it's wrong to seek or reject the partnership, as long as it's thought through.

[ if she has anything else to add, it's getting cut short because of SHADOWS. ]

[recession]

Then it depends on what you want.

[ He can work with either, honestly. Looks at the one character in his canon who actively is like don't call me by my first name it creeps me out so he just calls her Ms. Sauer forever.

Anyway that's what I THOUGHT!!! I felt it in my bones I'd get this mem. Daan is quiet for a moment, blinking once, twice. ]

...You've seen a lot more than I thought you would have.

[sonorant]

[ i thought about giving you looking for the BETRAYAL IN THE FAMILY and "dying" for it but ultimately went this way

to her credit, robin forces herself not to touch her neck, and she manages a wan smile. ]

Many have the impression that I'm too sheltered or too kind. [ which she can understand. ] I used to be quite naive.

[recession]

I don't know that I would've pinned you for too sheltered...

[ She's living with them in their shitty garbage camp situation isn't she. Without any real complaint, or asking a thousand questions about relatively mundane things. ]

But maybe "too kind" isn't wrong.

...

That wound was pretty major. Does it still bother you?

[sonorant]

The surgery was a success. There is no pain anymore even if still a slight scar, but...

[ she gestures to her collar. it's noticeable for a hyv character. ]

I don't want to cause unnecessary concern.

[recession]

...You're quite brave after all.

War wounds aren't anything to scoff at.

[sonorant]

[ i got two notifs but none of them were the original. ]

Am I? I was very scared back then, scared I wouldn't be able to do anything like I wanted to anymore... even after I was healed.

[recession]

You still went to that war-torn planet knowing what was there.

It's normal to feel fear following consequence. It's the matter of whether it was strong enough to change who you are.

[sonorant]

[ his words make her smile a little. they're nice words. they're comforting words. ]

If I help only those who are easiest to help, how much do I truly wish to help? My wish to help is only stronger for it.

[recession]

[ He briefly thinks about her appearance, the name 'halovian', and wonders if an angel joke should be apt. But he doesn't, because he feels like it'd be a bit much and feels like low-hanging fruit as far as sayings go, and maybe she's heard it a thousand times before. ]

How radiant of you. Never met a brighter person, personally.

[sonorant]

[ her little wings behind her ears flap to hide her face for a second. ]

I do want to be a light that can shine through even in a dream, but... somehow, it's a little embarrassing to hear someone else say it.

[ it's different than people describing her superstar status. that's what she's used to. ]

[recession]

[ Robin... sweetest person in the game. ]

Through even in a dream... why does that ring a bell, again?

[ I feel like she's mentioned how Penacony works a little bit but my rl memory is not 100%. Everything happens so much. ]

[sonorant]

[ i have forgotten who all robin has told about penacony, but you can handwave that she's told him the basics of how penacony works as a dream world. ]

It is because dreams are never too far from me. [ when she isn't touring anyway. ] Because even in a world where you can enter dreams... I think you should want to wake up.

[recession]

...

Pretty interesting thing to say, not that I disagree with you...

What is a dream to you?

[sonorant]

It's... complicated.

[ her whole life has been turned upside down because of dreams. ]

A dream should be distinguished from reality, but I also think you should be able to make some dreams a reality. They can be a reprieve, but it's sad if they're an escape.

It should not be the only way for someone to live.

[recession]

My views might be skewed a bit, since I've recently had a pretty bad experience where dreaming was concerned. A shared dark premonition of unpleasant things to come, that sort of thing. I definitely wish that thing stayed distinct from reality... but I know that's not the type you mean.

...Can't stay running forever, can you?

[sonorant]

I know it's not easy for people to stop running, but I'd like to be able to give people a way to try.

What do you mean by a shared dark premonition?

[recession]

...Somewhat as it sounds. When I first arrived in Prehevil, I saw a pretty awful dream.

Turned out to be not so much just a dream, once I learned all the other passengers on the train had the same one, and the man in said dream turned out to be the orchestrator for the nightmare we all experienced then.

[sonorant]

It's similar but different. [ ... ] No one should be able to manipulate dreams like that, not to that extent.

[ a shared experience like that.... terrible. ]

How did you escape?

[ also lowe WHERE IS MY MEMORY ]

[recession]

[ STOP I WANTED TO ADDRESS ROBIN'S MEMORY FIRST AND ARRIVE TO A NICE POINT!!!!! YOU SHALL GET YOUR MEMORY. ]

...I... don't. I'm sometimes not even sure I actually ever did, because I just... came here, instead.

[ Anyway it's kind of weird timing for it because it doesn't have to do with him 'escaping' the nightmare but she can have this memory. ]

[sonorant]

[ WIFE (dead) but still WIFE

trapped and trapped again is the feeling she gets from this. too tired and too trapped with the claws of grief that won't let go. the situation is worrying in a lot of ways. penacony is submerged in depression, but it's not that level of horror. ]

... You must be very tired of cults and sacrifices.

[recession]

...

Kinda putting it lightly, to be honest...

But yeah.

[ Obviously no blame on her, it's just. Yeah. Boy, he is tired. ]

Not happy to be here for more reasons than the plain and obvious.

[sonorant]

I don't want to frame your experiences without knowing more...

[ she can't pretend to know when she doesn't. ]

What answers are you searching for?